let it snow let it snow let it not.

T-minus 9 months

ugh. snow. for those of you who live in warmer regions, be glad. ohio’s winters are usually pretty brutal. I nearly froze to death while making the long walk from the parking lot to school. Usually I like snow in December, but this year is different. I’m already sick of it. Snow is one of those weird things. When I’m sitting in my room, snuggled up with a blanket and reading a book, I love to see the flakes fall gracefully out the window. But when I’m walking to school with snow being blown at me, I want the sun to move a few million miles closer.

Altogether, winter is pretty depression. It’s dark shortly after five, its cold, and all I ever want to do is sit in my house. How depressing, the thing I hate is that it lasts so long. We really only have 3-4 months of nice weather, and thats junem july, august, and then the front end of may and the back end of september. Of course we get those random nice days in october and april, but those are pretty unpredictable. The rest of the time is just miserable. And the realization is dawning on me that I’ll be walking all over osu’s campus next year. yuck. But I guess it’s worth it. I mean, I’ve been dreaming about this since I was a kid. Of course, that’s because my dad filled my head with stories of his experiences and how awesome it is.

With that being said, it sounds like I’m only going there because my dad wants me to. But there’s many more reasons. It might sound a little weird, but I want to go to a school that isn’t super easy to get into (cough cough, the exact opposite of kent). And ohio state is pretty hard. well for the average person. Its nice to hear pepole be like “wow, I can’t get into there.” I mean, everyone around here is into ohio state, but most of them won’t actually go there. I guess it’s just nice knowing that all this hard work has finally paid off for me. Now all that’s left is for me to get a kick ass job and live an awesome life. here i go

I Hope There’s Ice on All the roads

T-minus 10 months

seriously what the fuck? people make me so angry. Like come on, my phone was in the other room, i missed yur text by 5 minutes so you just leave without me? I get so sick of putting up with this. One minute I feel like we’re best friends and the next it’s like you don’t even care about me. I’ve had to change my plans for you but you can’t wait a few minutes for me? depicable.

I guess I just have to remind myself that i’ll be in a better place soon. ten months ten months ten months. In ten months I’ll be gone having the time of my life at osu while she’s back in cleveland. And while she’s getting bad grades like always, i’ll be up there making As and getting a kick ass job. Yeah, just gotta tell myself that. Pretty soon none of this will matter. It will just be a little smudge in the history of my life. Buckeye games, cute guys, huge malls, time of my life. ohio state. yeah, that’ll be the life

I’m a Million Different People From One Day to the Next

T- minus 10 months

So yeah today started out average. No actually it was bad. Fights with my siblings and bad moods. But that all changed in one instant of logging on to the computer. Here’s the big news:

I was accepted into Ohio State

Not just any ohio state but THE ohio state, aka my dream college aka the place I’ve wanted to go since I was a kid. I seriously can’t believe it as I’m sitting here typing this out. I’m afraid that this will be one of those dreams that I wake up from and wanna punch someone because it felt so real. But no, this is too real. I’ve been thinking of this moment since forever. I certainly didn’t expect to cry when I found out. But I did. I guess it’s because this moment is something i’ve been craving forever. My future suddenly became a lot less blurry. There will be no more nights of going to bed worrying that I won’t get accepted. It’s all over. That also means that I don’t have to finish my other applications that have been sitting there gathering dust for the past month.

so yeah (i say that a lot…) I’m happy as hell. The average time to find out is 8-12 weeks. I found out in 3. It looks like things really are starting to work out for me, and I couldn’t be any happier. thank you god ♥

The more I see the less I know

T minus 10 months

Lately I’ve been getting this weird feeling. I don’t know what it is. It’ slike a mix of satisfaction and contentness (is that even a word?) and bliss. Like everything is going to be okay no matter what bad crap happens. And that sounds good ya know, like something people should feel all the time but i usually don’t.

I don’t know why ive made the transition to this feeling of not caring at all, but I must say I like it. Well thats not ture. i know. I keep reminding myself that ill be out of here in less than a year. It’s like starting over. I have this stupid vision of college being perfect where I make tons of friends, have an amazing boyfriend, easy classes, and get a kick ass job. Okay, I know that isn’t how it always goes, but hey, I can dream, right? I just want to know how it’ll all turn out. Will things be ass great as I imagine them? or will I wish i was back in high school? scratch that. I’d never wish that.

High school is way too…dull. In a sea of 2700 faces, I’m a no one. I know that college will be huge and I won’t be a big thing, but I want to be known by at least some people. That’d be nice. Hell, it’d be much better compared to how I am now. I guess I’m okay with it. If I could change it, i don’t think i would. But if I could go back and start over to say, like, middle school, I definitely would. I’d love to change those awkward phases where I had no idea who I was. but I turned out fine.

Well with that comforting, uh, blog I’ll let go. It’s getting close to my “bedtime” but I’ve no intention of going to sleep early. Thanksgiving break starts in T minus 16 hours so I can sleep it off.

I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?

T minus 10 months

So much for posting every day. I was dead tired last night and crashed when I got home and then this morning I spent like 2 hours sitting in my bed playing with my phone. Angry birds? hell yes. That seems to be my routine every weekend morning. I’ve only had my phone for a month and a half but I can’t even remember how i survived without it. Okay, lets not be dramatic. I’m just so glad I finally cracked down and got a new one. This this is awesome.

 Tumblr won’t let me post on my phone and i read that the tumblr app really sucks so until they fix it it looks like I’d have to resort to posting on my computer.

Right now I think I’ll waste time by commenting on iTunes lameness. Their dumb protected files can’t be played on my phone which means that I have to go download them again. Or maybe I can figure out how to fix that. ugh who knows. Now I know why I don’t like getting music from iTunes anymore.

Here I am First foot of the climb watch me go

T minus 10 months

So I dont know why but i’ve really wanted to get back to tumblring. I think its something with the school year and my want to exprewss my thoughts without anyone i know personally finding out. so what better way than to come on tumblr and share the love?  I figured I’d come on here and blog & stuff. My countdown at the top of all my posts will be until i get out of here and go to college. I’ll go count down the days once I actually get accepted. so here we go into the mystical world of Nicole